Seeking Desideratum: May 2010

Oh my god! Crikey! I would have never thought to check Tony's Website for Jesus. I'm so glad that we found him. That darn Jesus is just so good at hiding.

Also, now I have a REAL reason to hate Arabs. Before I just had this deep seated contempt for all Arabs, but I really had no way to justify when I give them dirty looks in public for wearing their crazy clothes. But now I do, because guess what, GOD SAID they are despicable and CRAZY! I have every right to despise them because the good ol' bible tells me so!

Thank you so much whoever put this newsletter on my windshield as I was leaving the book store today. You've made the my world make a whole lot more sense by spreading your "Good News."

Evangelicals, proving that one can both be an ass, and a pain in one at the same time.

So my husband and I were discussing that this is the month of our one year anniversary of NOT attending church. Although I did stop a month or so before he did... because he had a calling and would actually show up to do it.

But yes. It was the month of May where we finally stopped going altogether. We haven't been back since. And we have no desire to return.

That hasn't stopped my visiting teachers however. I still get myriad phone calls, messages, gifts, etc. One time, I was approached about visiting teaching at my job (I work at a library). But yeah, I don't know what to say or do. I'm thinking about writing them an email and just asking them to stop contacting me.

The trouble is they are very nice people after all. Just trying to do their best as they try to navigate this freaked up religion as best they know how. After all, their salvation is contingent upon mine.

I just want to put this behind me. It is difficult though when I get little presents at my door which include messages from leaders in the church, past and present, that talk about how scripture study is the best thing ever. How do you drop the VTs?

Suggestions and ideas would be most appreciated. I would like to do something that doesn't involve me going on a tirade about the church to them.

One Year Anniversary

I am still here. And every once and a while I explore outer blogness. But lately, I have had a lot of stuff going on. School, work, family and a plethora of other obligations have taken up a lot of my time.

Currently, I get letters every week from my sister-in-law on her mission. It's almost like a weekly reminder of what was once me. But now it just all seems so foreign.

I've become very cynical of all religion in general. Which is sad, because I don't like to be considered a cynical person.

I am at a point where it just seems so absurd to me. I recently acquired a Urantia book just for kicks, and had a friend do a tarot reading for me. This kind of stuff would have freaked out my former self, but now, I seem to look into mysticism and religions because it has become sort of a game. It is kind of like a hobby to me now.

I was also looking to participate in a Holi celebration, but I wasn't able to find a hindu temple around here quite like the one in Spanish Fork, Utah where outsiders are a big part... Maybe I just didn't look hard enough.

Hm.

Not much else. Just making it through, one day at a time.

Meh.

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